Ladies and Gentlecats!
It’s been a while since I’ve posted, hasn’t it?
I took me a while to realize this, but in order to better serve you, I had to do some work on myself. When I first started posting, I was trying to figure out what to say to you, Reader. Though I had fun writing the blog and reaching out to others (even as far as Africa), I also felt that I was two different people at the moment.
Let me explain: the person posting was confident, self-aware and pretty much far removed from the trauma at hand. But the person I really am is angry, sad and is still wondering why all this happened to me. Sometimes, those two people struggled to find a voice through those posts.Worse than that? I began to feel that I was sending out mixed messages to people. How can I tell you to have faith and hope when mine was dimming? Who was I to tell you to trust when that’s one of my main hurdles–even as I write this? Maybe I’m projecting a bit, but my gut feeling told me that it was time to take a break from The Possible World. So that’s what I did.
And now I am back and most definitely in effect.
After taking my hiatus, I realize that people were still reading my stories months after I began posting. I didn’t even realize how much I missed writing and communicating with other bloggers and other people until now. I logged in, only to see that people continue to like my blog. Everything I write is being searched for and referred to other readers. That alone helps me keep going and it shows me that, as long as I keep being honest with myself–and accept where I am–everything else will work out. The words will spread and I would be doing my job as a blogger.
And–to me–that’s all that matters.
In other words, it’s good to be home.